Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Umie和我

就在第3天拍摄的晚上,Umie哭了;我也哭了。

从实验的道具、被动的儿童观众、不定的明星嘉宾、难搞的主持人、懒散的摄影大哥,还有一直催促的导演。即使已经崩溃哭了,她还是坚持: I want to say.

舞台总监 Umie


身为她的助理,我确实不称职。一开始的好几天,我都在不肯定和犹豫里工作;很多时候,我不知道什么该做,什么不该做;甚至应该做多少。每天总会免不了被Umie责骂,那时候总害怕隔天的到来,这样的感觉心里十分难熬,很想就这样不管了,不理了。在挣扎中,我不断“灌输”自己比较好过的想法,“骂一骂就会变聪明了”。但是,这种想法很显然还是在自欺欺人,问题还是无法得到改善。

直到那一夜拍摄结束后,Umie决定召集全体部门和大家“说说话”。

各部门的事情,该交待的,该改善的都交待清楚后,人群逐渐散开,开始准备隔天的拍摄。在安静的摄影棚里,只剩下我,Umie和制作人 Aileen。我对她们说出了我在这几天所看见的问题,我是那么的不情愿下,眼泪就开始涌流而下,不停不停。

原来,我们一直都不明白彼此所想要的事情;和所做的事情。是误解吗?还是我不晓得?后来,直到拍摄结束为止,Umie都没有再严厉地训话还对我说Good Job。直到现在,我心里还是抱着怀疑究竟是眼泪让大家的情绪缓下来,还是我真的明白了?我希望,经过那一夜之后,我真的是懂了,明白了,学起来了。


我只是知道,后来的大家都变得格外温柔,很可爱。。。

除了被大家耻笑我的英文发音还有破烂的国语之外,每天就是马不停蹄的赶、赶、赶
能够吃到午餐已经是一种奢侈,还是狼吞虎咽般的“奢侈”。我每天都在倒数拍摄结束的日子可以快点到来。最后的那天,我真的感到雀跃一切就要结束了。

在庆功聚会的晚上,Aileen就坐在我的斜对面。她在一片哗然声中对慢慢地对我说:
I’m proud of you

我亲耳听见了那句话。

Thank You”.

***

从筹备到拍摄到结束,失去了很多自己的时间,失去了和朋友见面的聚会,还有精神和体力上的消耗,那么地疲累。但是,看见全部的crew齐心合力地互相帮忙,那种团队精神依然还是让我心里那么地感动,那种让我向往的感觉。

Aileen在拍摄开始之前曾经玩笑地说尽量不会被她骂到哭;就在第3天发生了然而却不是因为她。是Umie,我说。Aileen接着雀跃地和其他同事击掌。

那是幸灾乐祸还是过度乐观的制作人?不过,她是知道怎么“阅读”人的女制作人。当她对Umie说出我的工作方式时,我心里是“哇”的一声。即使我和她相处的机会不多,也很少交谈,她却好像一眼看穿我的由里到外。惊人!

如果还有Season 3,我还是愿意成为你们的团队之一。
让我再说一次,最后一次:



                              Bijiak, Memang Bijak!


             

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

那些经验之谈

因为常常得熬夜,现在开始有喝罐装Nescafe的习惯;通常,早上能有包装橙汁会更棒。
在这个领域里,  “提神品”(包括烟)与其说是依赖,我会说是一种需要来提神,不然当黑夜来临时会越来越难熬。

当初,美术指导问我在这一行希望有什么样的成就,导演或是制作人,我选择了后者。其实,我还不清楚自己自己究竟要做什么,竟然只能有这两种选择:我就择其一咯~
之后好几次,我都回答一样的答案。

CLEVER(Astro科学儿童电视节目)的制作人对我说,想要成为和她一样,最重要的是Human Management。我还不是能够完全参透她的意思,我想应该是和人际关系息息相关吧?现在的我,最喜欢的是CLEVER的美术指导,因为我爱她的乐观和Supportive。当初,我们一起用晚餐的时候,她说做这一行不愉快(包括被挨骂)的时候时常都会有,最重要的是“不要放在心上”,到底这只是一份工作。 特别是昨天的室内拍摄,她让我心中默默地感动,只因为她和我的High5鼓励。

承蒙她们对我的器重,我可以在这次电视拍摄担任稍重的角色。今天,第一天,所以我紧张,我压力。她看见了我脸上挂着的忧虑,在rolling倒数的几分钟前给我击掌,那时候,除了感动,还有很多很多的动力撑着我。那种纯粹的支持是那么的美丽~ 
我都叫她 “Sifu”! 

那夜,我们外景拍摄工作结束后,大家一块儿小酌聊聊。就在那一夜,我决定暂且继续升学的计划,先在这“染缸”里先打滚几年吧~  制作人建议,若不是向往教育工作的话,文凭根本就是奢侈品,经验更甚一切。这让我联想起昨天舞台总监对我说的一番话,“要用你的常识工作”;难听一点就是“用你的脑袋工作”。当然,我十分赞同她说的,因为很多时候我也受不了那没有(脑袋)常识的另一个实习生。她的逻辑时常让人不解,而且那“贵妇”般的坐姿时常让我很想给她巴下去。哈哈哈!

我想,比起每两个星期必须呈上去的报告;这些才是我的学习。

我发现公司极致阴盛阳衰,男儿通常都是属技术工作的岗位。那些巾帼们都有共同点:
1。短发
2。戴眼镜
3。单身
4。身兼多职的能力
5。潇洒豪迈(也是说没有什么仪态)

那些高层都是女生,而且她们都鄙视男生在这一行的工作能力和态度。不过,我觉得公司其实有一位Good Looking Guy, 虽然不多至少还有一枚,哈哈哈~  目前,我最喜欢公司的一点就是multi-racial的工作环境,下篇部落格在告诉你,因为我要就寝了,迎接着我的是连续为期一个星期的拍摄。(被迫拒绝了许多的邀约和聚会,唉。)

待续。


某天,制作团队为我们准备的宵夜。



                 

Saturday, June 4, 2011

红中

周末真好!

已经开始实习3个星期了,工作后属于自己的时间只剩下那么一丁点;不能想去看戏就去看戏,也不能和邀约的朋友相聚,有时候连睡觉的时间都不够。我现在终于明白Housemate的唉声叹气:“上班等午餐,午餐等下班。。。 还有美好的周五!”
Monday Blue!



确实,当初是我自己选择了Production House,然而每当拍摄直到深夜的时候,我的体力和意志力渐渐开始薄弱。我想,这种生活方式我能够走多远,走多久?虽然我只是“临演”的社会新鲜人,我深深觉得心里不平衡。在这个真实的领域里面,即使我读了将近3年的大学,完成无数个Assignment 还有狼狈的考试,考试再考试;在张牙舞爪的现实面前,我只是一个很渺小的实习生。所有的事情好像都是从零开始,怎么一回事?

现在的我最需要的是 
                         每天都可以拥有充足的睡眠

Zzzzzzzzz.... ....           

                                                          
                            

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

明亮的电影

在我们前往观赏陈翠梅的最新作品 无夏之年 Berkelana 的路上, Jason 愤愤不平地说:“他妈的,我在色情片的地方找到蔡明亮的片。” 他表达的语气不禁让我笑出来。

我接触蔡明亮的第一部电影是“ 天边一朵云 ”让我为之惊艳,大胆使用情欲和性爱场面却不失故事情节所要表达内敛和细腻的感觉。当然还有众所周知蔡明亮喜爱的长镜头和述说生活里面小人物的故事。我喜欢的是他作品里的那份真实感。

电影院上映的多数影片里的男女主角都有令人羡煞的背景,俊俏/美丽的脸孔;真实的生活里很多周遭平凡的小人物也有被忽略的感受。后现代的观众似乎都十分沉醉在过于完美的电影世界里,即使是成人片的男主角也有不可剥夺的感受和拥有爱情的权利。在蔡明亮巧思运用情欲的手法,让他导演的作品在电影界里独树一格。

[天边一朵云] A片男演员李康生的“工作”。

[天边一朵云] 爱情或是面包?

[天边一朵云] 当她难过的无法自己歇斯底里地大哭,小康似乎用情欲的肉体在安抚她。

[你那边几点] 深深地思念往生的丈夫,只能在自慰中幻想丈夫的宠爱。

蔡明亮最近期的作品,脸Visage 是受法国罗浮宫的邀请以电影诠释罗浮宫以透过影像的符码传递全世界。脸,以达文西的名画“圣施洗约翰”和“莎乐美 Salome ” 的故事为题。如果你不懂这其中的构思,肯定看得一头雾水。

以色列希律王是莎乐美的继父,她的美无与伦比。莎乐美爱慕先知约翰(圣经人物),希望能够得到他的吻。在希律王的宴会上,希律王答应莎乐美只要能够为他跳一支舞蹈(七纱舞),他愿意答应莎乐美的任何愿望,包括他的江山。莎乐美开口要的是约翰的人头。

她捧起先知约翰的人头亲吻,说:“你为什么不看看我。只要你看到我,你一定会爱上我。。。”


[脸Visage] 人和鬼魂之间通过画面巧妙地表达。

[脸Visage] 不愿离去的妈妈(鬼魂)吃豆花的这幕让人心酸。

[脸Visage] 在黑暗中靠着打火机微弱的火光诠释两人的缠绵和暧昧,赞!

[脸Visage] 女主角身扮成莎乐美向剧中的导演求爱。


在这部电影里想要表达的是当我们像莎乐美一般,在现实生活里竭尽所能地想办法得到我们想要东西后,却发现往往结果和当初所想的不同。

情欲是生活里面无法避免的真实,我欣赏蔡明亮导演大胆的擅用身体来说一段故事。我们不能否认性的欲望满满地充斥着我们生活里面,是时时刻刻环绕不休的话题。不论是在那一种层面,露骨的构思往往还是取决于艺术家如何运用在他熟练的空间,完善地表达他的想法和感受。在我看来,没有一定的水准和技巧,情欲反倒会弄巧成拙变低级的成人片;同志的故事会变成一部大笑话,就在那一线之差。


艺术应该是不受约束的,是自由的。

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Documentary: The Myth and Islam

Besides of MCP, we also have to come out with SCP (Single Camera Production) which is part of our Final Year Project as well- Documentary. We were struggling between topic "The Development of 3D" or "Pontianak" at the beginning and the group members cast their votes for " the woman"- Pontianak. Even though this production was in smaller group with 9 members, everything doesn't goes smooth as planned initially. We encountered the difficulties to reach the interviewee we wanted to interview with and conflict also raised among ourselves later.



It was really sad to see the conflict happened among us, of course, we were awkward after all. We are losing direction and uncertain with what we're doing, thats why we were stress and restless while rushing to meet the deadline of other assignments at the same time. It was a bloody killing session! To be frank, I was disappointed with few others group member that never show concern or offering help on this documentary when it is actually THEIR final year work as well, I thought. Without proper communication, the conflict happened when no ones is questioning and asking about the progress of documentary and everyone else seem like dying with own assignment in silent. I feel contrite to my producer with over question on the progress of documentary and irritated her so much in the end. In anyway, I'm thankful for her effort and contribution to the production as well. That day, I saw her tears were rolling in the eyes... .. 

Everyone has their own way on handling thing, for me, I would love to talk face to face.Sometimes, most of the time, people hardly hear about your efforts in silent. OR maybe, I'm more demanding person in other saying. Hmmm... There are two important lesson I gained from this experience, Leadership and Communication. Since I've talk about the communication problem earlier, maybe I can share some of opinion on leadership from this production. My director is a gentle and extreme friendly lady, not even that, she is showing her potential in production start from production last year... and I believe she will be even outstanding person equipped with ability on decision making, A Leader. The thought and decision as an leader is important for a production team, because lacking of confident and uncertainty will greatly affect the progress of production. When you've the ability to be in the position, there is no doubt that people have certain level of confident on you by putting you in that place, isnt? For me, I think every production is an opportunity to learn moreover skill, but also knowing yourself better. So, whats your gain in this experience? It is definitely not merely A Production spent you a fortune thats all.   

Ayam Kampung

Pisang Goreng treated by Orang Kampung

In the few previous posts in my blog, my coursemates bought me a cake written with "Cik Pontianak" on it during my birthday. Well, I was supposed to act as Pontianak in the initial storyline and we've already shooted the footages! The storyline changed entirly considerate from the aspect of our topic and avoiding ludicrous when watching a familiar face of me! (reduce the impact of realistic in screen). Espcially thanks to our junior, Kahmun for lending the baju kebaya that I'm wearing for shooting purpose.





Frankly speaking, I was quiet stress on this documentary production because there are people with expectation out there on our work. In this production, I've consulted with one of our lecturer Mr Luqman Lee with his knowledge on this topic and he hopes to screen our work during his class as reference for malaysia's topic study. Besides that, the author of 120 Malay Movies Amir Muhammad (Director) also requesting to screen on his exhibition too. I'm so glad for the opportunity and the expectations on us, however, I hope they wouldn't feel too disappointed after seen our student work to their standard....
Stressnya.

The topic on Pontianak was inspired by the book that I've read ( not finishing yet, ohh...) and I found interesting to do something about her since we're limited to Malaysia's topic as well. There is a scene in the storyline (Initial) adopted from the book that acted out by me, it suppose to be "see" like this: 

A bloke says of a passing Cantonese-speaking Chinese woman:
 "Kalau dia pontianak, aku paku tengkok dia dengan paku, kahwin.
(If she's a pontianak, I will drive a nail into the back of her neck, and marry her)"

To which she replies in Malay,
"Macam mana kau tahu aku bukan pontianak?"
 (How do you know I'm not a pontianak?) 

                                                                                                                   
                                                                          -120 Malay Movies, p.129


Perhaps when you're reading my post, you've no idea what Pontianak is and about?
Let me clear your doubt by watching our Final Year Project,
Documentary: The Myth & Islam.  




Production Crews

Producer: Poon Sook Yee
Director : Pang Wan Yee
Assistant Director: Catea Tan
Production Manager: Lee Hong Hui
Lighting Director: Daniel Lee Yun Rhui
Camera Operator: Liu Win Gian
Audio Engineer: Kumutha Devi
Set Designer: Phua Eng Yee
Floor Manager: Loke May Rong
Continuity Secretary: Loke May Rong
Cast Director: Kumutha Devi

Online Editor: Pang Wan Yee
Offline Editor: Liu Win Gian
Graphic Designer: Phua Eng Yee

Especially thank to
Narrator: Luqman Lee
       



        

Saturday, April 30, 2011

那·空白

一组组、一句句、一行行,在我的脑海里漂浮;
一区区、一题题、一横横,像蚂蚁排列在眼前;

刹那间,不知道该如何将那些漂浮的字句安置在属于它的位子。
突然回想,为何那时一片空白;
再想,倘若这只是我今天未醒的噩梦;
更想,如果一切可以再重来。

我视乎,多想了。
我想。


                        

Friday, April 29, 2011

MCP: Show Time! (最终回)


Ladies and gentlemen, is
SHOW TIME!





UTAR Broadcasting Class/2009 Final Yer Project
Genre: Situation Comedy (Multi-Camera Production)

Crew List:
Producer               : Poon Sook Yee
Director                 : Nelson Chin
Technical Director : Pang Wan Yee

Scriptwriter : Ann Santana
                    Lee Hong Hui
                    Cynthia Chan
                    Phua Eng Yee
                    Poon Sook Yee


Floor Manager          : Fong Mei Ling
Production Manager : Tan Suak Wah
                                  Loke Mei Rong
VT Operator             : Kumutha Devi
Camera Operator       : Catea Tan
                                    Liu Win Gian
                                   Yin Thien Hao
Audio Engineer          : Cynthia Chan
Ass Audio Engineer   : Lee Hong Hui
Lighting Director        : Daniel Lee 
Ass Lighting Director : Tiong Yong Keu
Set Designer              : Lim Cien Yie

Make-up Artist : Tan Chen Ee
                          Soh Wei Xin
Wardrobe        : Ann Santana

Graphic Designer : Phua Eng Yee
Editor                  : Nelson Chin