Sunday, March 27, 2011

Use your Brain

"One does not think better in a library or campus, 
and one is not smarter simply because one reads as many 
books as one can get one's hands on.

Farish A. Noor


Critical thinking requires honest and courageous engagement, 
and a conscious will to break from convention,
 to think outside the safe of confines of the familiar,
 to go beyond habit and routine, and to dare to question."

    
         


Monday, March 21, 2011

你的18岁

连续几天没去上课,感觉时间已经过了一万年;
当我非常“忙碌”地去上课的时候,又觉得自己正在迅速老化中。Oh my gosh!
就连我打工地方的Azmir都嫌弃我老,19岁我也曾经有过好不好?哈哈哈。(无奈)

平常赶这,赶那惯了,日子突然慢下来空虚的感觉席卷而来,很不适应。人真是犯贱噢!和朋友在网上聊聊,大家都对自己的将来已有了蓝图;我们的年级虽然相仿,但是现在的他已经在世界的另一端开始令人羡煞的新生活;亲爱的他也打算在不久的将来在缅甸生活。我的天哪,我梦寐以求的人生!!!

我实在无法活得太普通,毕竟人生啊我也走了1/4 的路程了。活像“罐头式”的日子太久,时常会让我觉得很厌倦,没有推动力。大家都说:毕业后找份安稳的工作,找一位人生的伴侣经营“戏剧化”的Happy Ending, 再用力的过日子直到儿孙满堂。。。我没有办法妥协。这和photo copy有什么分别?或许,你现在会笑我好高骛远(或者有一天我也会那样想)但是,至少现在这个就是那么写实的我。

二十来岁也谈不上什么“人生”,感觉好像在吹嘘;因为家庭的背景和经历的那些经验,Make me who I am today。或许就是那些曾经,很多时候都无法轻易的苟同同年龄朋友的想法(当然,也有例外的人);我不是倚老卖老,若我也可以不必承受少年时超过我可以负荷的那些经历。。。不过,往好的一方面或许那样的经历也让我更加成熟;但是也无形中容易对人树立“请勿靠近”的围墙。

虽然我原先的计划视乎暂时该一段落,寄望也只是剩下残留的余光。他说,放手吧。“年轻总是充满了抱负和理想,但是别寄望太高。”比起其他人的正面鼓励和安慰,他还是一如往常地那么写实给我劝,或许我们共同有着“白雪公主后母般的剧情”。。。

我挺喜欢现在打工的地方,虽然我其实并不缺钱,因为我喜欢“看人”,他们让我思考。
周一到周五的大学生活,局限了生活的观望;在那里,我可以看见现今都市人的生活方式和态度;非得不说,很多时候都让我咂舌。有时候在想,难道是我的想法固步自封或是这时代的人们都太"Advance"了说?我之前曾经提过,打工的地方都是在籍的学院生居多(年轻真好!),无论男女,他们最大的“休闲活动”是在两根手指头之间刁着一根烟。。。在那里,最常被问的问题是“你有烟吗?” 这问题的“问题”是:大家都已经认为抽烟并不是一种个人的“选择”,反而是一种“基本”社交。18岁的Jesslyn看起来娇小有着甜美的脸蛋,那天我看见她刁着那根烟在玻璃墙外像是老烟枪的那样子;我看起来若无其事的脸,其实心里面在惊叹“WALAO EH !!!” 不止是她,还有那一边喷烟一边走进来打招呼的女学院生。我不懂,哎。

前天,全身上下都“穿”满了洞的Abbie告诉我说,除了大家看得到的地方之外,就连下体也“穿戴了耳环”。我不懂,她说那隐秘处是给男朋友看的。
我。。。 (说不出话了)
当她回问我穿洞在哪时,我就说:”所有你面前看得到的地方。。。” (我简直是啼笑皆非)不过,认识他们是一件有趣的事情。



*继续观察*


          

Sunday, March 20, 2011

我的最爱

突然想起了这部几年前看的香港电影-  叶念琛导演的 “我的最爱”。


这部电影让我最印象深刻的一幕是当阿蚊得知男朋友- 阿凤已另结新欢(劈腿)时,对他说出的女人心底话。或许,那时的我也是别人的“女朋友”所以感触特别深。


再重新看这一幕时,感受也不同了。时过境迁,我们在时间里经历和感受的所有人事物让我们成长,看事情也不再那么肤浅;开始想得也比较多,更长远。单单是电影的一幕,在不同的时间点观看思想的已有所不同,更何况是这虚无缥缈的人生呢。






“ 我不是想查你的电话,但是这跟买衣服唱K一样是我的嗜好。
我希望你身边的女人全是肥婆,猪排。
我来月经是,可以为所欲为,大发脾气,你也只是忍我几天。
我发脾气时,叫你不要来找我,永远都是假的,一定要回来找我。
我发脾气跟你说的话,千万不要当真。

我说不好,就是好。
我说不要,就是要。
我说不想,就是想。

我在街上走掉了之后,你一定要回来追我,我不想在玻璃和倒后镜后面,看你有没有跟在我后面。

我整天说要减肥,其实我最想听到你跟我说:“你一点都不肥,我喜欢就行了。”
我没有安全感是因为我太爱你,我不可以没有你。”


[ 我说,女人哪,真是一门千年难懂的艺术。(一笑)]

  

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Gift

A Lovely Gift from Amir Muhammad  :)

We went to his apartment and did an interview with him for our documentary yesterday night. That was the third time I met and talked to him in person, realize he actually like pistachio! 

Before we about to leave, he gave me this book as gift that I always wanted to buy! Oh yea~
The reason that I did not purchase is because there are still many books that I've not finish reading yet... ..  (few books written by him and others published under Matahari as well)
I love the gift, thank you so much! 

And, I decided to buy him 2Kg of Pistachio in return when I see him again for GIFT!
Hehehe!!! 



What your Teacher Didn't Tell you
 (Author: Farish A.Noor)



"Now you've no excuse for not reading it" said Amir.
        
                     

Friday, March 18, 2011

Michael Buble Crazy Love Tour Live in Malaysia

Sigh.

I'm so much regret that didn't purchase the One Left Rm250 concert ticket when the seat is still available. I'm over confident that no ones will buy the seat between and now, I end up moaning myself front of the screen. On the night of 13th March 2011, I'm especially heartache.....

I was hesitate and worry for my transportation after concert, what on earth I found out the organizer of MB concert did actually provide free shuttle bus from KL center to the Stadium Bukit Melawati!!!
* GRRR*


That is suppose to be My Seat... ..


Oh my dear Buble,
when would you looking into my eyes and sing for me again?



                                                            Impressive Opening!


                                                         He is so cute and FUN !!!


                                                             How sexy is "Georgia"....


                      I like the sequence of the songs flow ( too bad for the poor quality of video)


                                                                    Close to Michael!



  

          

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

[modnaR] Thought

[modnaR]


What the hell is that?
I thought I've already said that in my title...
(Try to read in a different way!)

I'm feeling bad and complicated today but hardly describe in actual words. The unpleasant feeling that filling me inside. Having good breakfast often let me feel the starting of a wonderful day and gives me good mood. Unfortunately, my good mood was spoiled when I saw her stepping in the door with that face.

She don't even bother to look at me like a stranger for few days eventhough I was actually just sat NEXT to her. Elo, may I know what is your problem, bitch?! I'm done with your Arrogant attitude that so "random and spontaneous" that in your way!
I AM TIRED WITH YOU!

Is that necessary to say thing so secretly instead of saying out to everyone loud since it suppose to be a Group Discussion, when you're not even there when we're having meeting at first. I really pissed off your attitude this few day and I've already had it enough!!!
So what if you can do that I can't?


my favourite American Breakfast @ Tappers, Rm 9.00


I'm really frustrated with the "waiting culture" that group living with and people never bother to make any changes albeit they know it was actually wasting of time! Especially when most of the time end up with NOTHING after loooooooooooong wait. Why we can't try to make life a little bit more effective huh? If you're Not Ready, Not Sure or Don't Know, why don't you make thing clear earlier and give difficulties to everyone else then?! To be frank, I'm not a patience person for unnecessary waiting, elo... ..

Coming to the 3rd year of my university life, I found MAJOR of the university student doesn't motivate to learn and know more.... Simply finish everything assigned by the lecturer from A to Z is enough to make their life wonderful, Sigh. Our Film Studied class as example, we'll have to watch a movie, analysize and discuss after all on the movie. Without any surprise as any other "Malaysian" student, the class is Silent because malaysian unversity student has No Opinion or probably No Brain in fact? As the tutor said, he will have to answer the question that asked by his own, as always. How you able to learn from Film Studied class is through Discussion and thats the only way, the key of this course is about HOW YOU THINK! I wonder when will this kind of learning environment gonna change in future... ... Well, I think I've not mention yet those students who SLEPT in a dead row for the entire session in front of tutor face. How would you feel if you're in tutor shoes, tell me? 


The Screening of Controversial Documentary:
 Kisah Tauke Mancis dan Minyak Tumpah.




Maybe we should not making fuss over sleeping session in the class as other univeristy students might also share the similar "culture" but I'm embarrasing to say that our student is thick face enough to sleep in a row on Invited Director (Screening) Sharing Session as well! I'm grateful to my mum for teaching and train me to behave in a good manner since I was young, not even how a girl should behave (Tatasusila) but how we should respect on other too. Just a very little effort that you "keep your eye open" when others is talking, albeit it might not look interesting at all to you.

It might sound wrong I'm critized all these as I'm a unversity student too, I just feel frustrated with the konon "university level" that our student actually is. It could be the problem of the learning environment that we're dealing with since young- The Dead Study System or why don't we start trying to ask for your first question in class tomorrow onwards?


The treasure is already there for you,
just the matter whether you want to own it or not.


My Dinner @ Heng Kee Bak Kut Teh


                                   

Sunday, March 13, 2011

MCP:Coming Soon

Hooray!!!
We're finally done with our MCP! (Claps)

No more stay up late at univeristy;
No more labor works;
No more rehearsal;
No more waiting and waiting!!!


*Fireworks & Cheers*


The backdrop team in 8 really did a good job on setting up in short time....
The incredible crews have always practice for their speed with time control and apparently practice does make perfect!

The full setting of VHC

Control Room | Director

Eventhough the in-charge person of Star Studio may not looking good at our production with sarcastic tone, however, I'm satisfied enough for the best we CAN DO with all the experience we had. Throughout 4 weeks of rehearsal in Star Studio, the assessment day was our best shoot ever. Maybe we're nobody in their eyes, at least there is no excuse and regret in ourselves that we didn't pay much attention enough. You know what am I saying?

Sharen (Wardrobe) & Belle (Make-up)

The next scene: after came back from the salon... ..

"make over" in 35 secs between commercial break, so QUICK!

Albeit the production was already wrapped up, the irresponsibility of few crews should be mentioned AGAIN here before I forget. (when most of the time the rest were annoyned and talk about behind but never try and "correct" them, great!)

Not to the mention the name but they should have know their responsibility if they did read my blog here.
For the past experience, there were few times the person who assigned to take care everyone valuable belonging (everything in a box) and turned out to see the "million dollars box" was left at the corner or EVEN outside the toilet without anyone care... I've to say the "Tai-Chi Kungfu" of bertolak (responsibility) is world-class level with the excuses " I thought the box was with who who who... .. " So, may I know who is the WhoWhoWho will compensate for everyone lost after that? 

Selain itu, everyone seem like forget about their duty after shoot with ALL the props left over there!
Person that suppose to carry the props together with them were GONE and cause unnecessary run again to make sure all the things were sent back to univeristy. Moreover, our tutor get mad on us because we were late for his 2pm class with only few students in. To be frank, I felt frustrated for the blame that put on us if the univeristy was aware that the shooting will take long time to finish and clear everything, why is the tutor can't be more understanding or make flexible changes on the time of class when we were actually late for every week?  *Grrr*

Talents in action

*Whistle*

*Awwwwwww *

Camera men: Windy (Left), Me and Ey (2nd Right)

Showing Happy VHC, Lives!

Floor Manager with "heavenly blessed" on hand, Emily.

Ahem....  *wink*

Production Crews and Talents of Happy VHC!

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Superstar Talent from next production team, Uncle Lim!
(If you watched Great Days, you should know)





{ Happy VHC · 高级美一家}

Coming Soon!

Thursday, March 10, 2011

MCP: Our Best We Can

10:21pm - Rehearsal Start

We're Serious....

Finally, Kumutha has the control!

超级娘娘装

大美女!

Every single word were cut by own.

Talent ready to go home

every efforts make behind the scene is all because of 
TOMORROW!





* Good Luck *


Myanmar Girl name Noe Noe

Her name is Noe Noe, I always make fun of her name " Noe Noe, no no no... "

She has a sweet smile with look of eighteen, in fact she is already 24 this year. Noe Noe is my new Myanmar friend at my working place. She has been working in Malaysia for 7 months after finished her high school, meanwhile, her parents has already living here for 15 years.

That day, she told me....
"I want to congrat you as a student now..."  then I asked her why.
.... she said she wish to be a student too, however, her family not able to afford her fees as both of them working as a factory worker only. Her wish to study sound so easy for us but too big for her...

Noe Noe told me education is very expensive in her country, most of the people manage to finished their high school level only. Even so, studying in high school also require them to pay about RM300+ every month. She lets me realize how good quality of life I'm living now, at least our government never neglect the important of education and provide everyone of us with the opportunity been able to study in school ALMOST FREE!

Noe Noe like our working place because is surrounded with student working part-time here. Albeit the time I know her is really short, her sharing and experience let me even more appreciate with all what I have now...How great it is we can go to school....  I would like to thank to my lovely country for giving me (us) the opportunity to go to school, and everyone too.

Dear Noe Noe, I really wish that you can continue your study when you have the ability in the future...
Because Learning is a never ending process... 
活到老,学到老。



CheiZuTinBarTe, Noe Noe  :)


         

Sunday, March 6, 2011

MCP: In the Star Studio

Date: 04 March 2011
Venue: Menara Star, Star Studio
Time: 0900-1100




[QUIET]
[ CAMERA ROLLING ]

[ACTION!]





......... 4 days Counting Down 

11.03.2011
     Are you ready?


       

MCP: Highlights!!!

Definitely the Highlight of All!

Beautiful Actress

.... So Beautiful Actress

... and VERY Beautiful "Actress" !!!

Mise_en_scène : MUST have!

When we're waiting;When we're tired....
(especially thanks to Cherrie)

so called... "Supplement"
&... ..


A pair of Sexy Legs!!!


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03 March, 2011 | Full Rehearsal Night


Action!

.... Hmmmm .. Interesting...



Proudly Introduce to you, Happy VHC Casts: 

Fai Lee as Louisy

Wen Yar as Bobo

Carson Nah as Tommy

Salmon as Juicy

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Last but not Least



Betty Liang as Barbara


“你说,我不漂亮咩?
   我不清纯咩?
       我不可爱咩?”

                                                                 (摘自: 高级美一家 Happy VHC)



不如,你说说看?
哈哈哈!

务必拭目以待!!!

MCP: Driving Force Behind

VHC · Director

VHC · Technical Director

VHC · Producer

VHC · Production Manager

VHC · Floor Manager

VHC · Camera Man 2

VHC · Camera Man 3

VHC · Graphic Artist

VHC · Lighting Director



Because the limitation on time, not able to take all picture of the crew in the production team.... 

Emm, how about me?
Why don't you give a guess?!


*hint* - you gotta look at me!

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Good Luck!!!